Wednesday, March 20, 2013

Days of Our Lives


There are those days... sunny ones... The ones when you can read “happiness” written across the sky in capital letters...The days when you can see the forget-me-not blue of the sky reflected in your friend’s eyes...The days when laughter flows as easily as water falling off a mountainside to form a fall...Those days when you get up late and worry about missing the first lecture and then find out that it got cancelled...The days when you cross all limits of craziness and fail to feel embarrassed...The days when the only stomach aches you have are because you were laughing too hard...Those days that make you want to conquer the world...Those days when nothing can go wrong...

And then there are the dark, cloudy, rainy days... Not the type of rain that you can enjoy but the other one which hurts you by the sheer force of it...Those days when your senses tell you that it is daytime but you can’t see the sun...Days when the rhythm of the rain matches the rhythm of the saddest song you have ever heard...Days when you don’t even realize when and how daylight faded into the absolute darkness of the night....Days when the sound of thunder repeatedly reminds you of the single blow that made you lose trust on your dear friend...Days when the sight of the rain remind you of people, places and faces that would never be the same again...Days when your tears become one with the rain hitting your face...Days that were never right...

And then there are days like this one...When you can ponder over everything with the dispassionate observation of a teacher grading the term papers...When you can smile and be on the verge of crying in the span of a heartbeat...When you can’t decide whether this day was sunny or shadowed...

Wednesday, December 26, 2012

DONT JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS MOVIE

A few days back someone asked me, "What is Ron Weasley's name?"
Now. me being a potterhead was obviously stunned to silence.
Later i realized ..... She was looking for Rupert Grint..... also realized WHY so many people think that the HP series is crap....
THEY HAVE ONLY EVER SEEN THE MOVIES!!

Thursday, July 19, 2012

THE LOVE RELATIONSHIP

It is lovely....

The sitting in front of a desktop and typing thing i mean...

ok so i should have written after may..
But i didnt.......My bad....


The good part is that I got what I wanted : a national law university.....
The bad part is that(well yes there is a bad part) : I am missing home........A LOT..

this is for Korba : I love you...1st loves dont die.....

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

ALMOST HOME

I know I should have written before.....

But the education system in this country forced me to bury my nose in physics chemistry and mathematics.........

Well, looks like  I am finally shot of them.....

I have been itching to write.........Anything.......

It almost feels like taking a leak after sitting on a full bladder for 2 months....

It feels light........

More comfortable...........

Like you have all the time in the world.....

And...uh.....Good.  Yeah. It makes you feel "good".

Glad to be up and writing again. Not that I was down or anything....well, not figuratively anyways...

cheerio!!

Monday, March 26, 2012

THE WALLS CLOSING IN

WITH THE 12TH BOARDS SUCCESSFULLY OUT OF THE WAY(NOT 12 HOURS AGO), I HAVE ALREADY STARTED FEELING HOLLOW....

ITS AN ALL TIME LOW...

WHAT WITH DAD GIVING ME THE ' ...GOING TO BE INDEPENDENT...' LECTURE IN THE CAR ON THE WAY BACK HOME FROM THE EXAM CENTRE...

I WANTED TO SCREAM!!!

NO. IT WAS NOT ABOUT GUYS.... RELATIONSHIPS....
NAH...

I GOT A LECTURE ON 'HOW TO HANDLE MONEY'...'HOW TO BE ADULT'...'HOW TO WASH MY OWN CLOTHES',,,

ALL I DID WAS NOD AND GRUNT.... I THINK I EVEN MANAGEDTO GET A FEW CRACKS IN THE CONVERSATION....

BUT I DONT WANT THIS,..... I WANT TO GO BACK.....DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN....

HELL, I DONT EVEN LOOK FORWARD TO COLLEGE....

I JUST AM FEELING SMALL AND LONELY AND LOST AND DOWN.........

FROM THE MOMENT I GOT OUT OF THE EXAM HALL I HAVE BEEN ON THE VERGE OF TEARS...... I KNOW I DONT WANT TO CRY.....I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO STOP....

BUT I CANT HELP THINKING THAT THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO FEEL RIGHT, BECAUSE EVERYBODY IN THIS FREAKING COUNTRY DOES THIS....

BUT IT DOES NOT FEEL OK....IT FEELS LIKE SOMEONE'S TRYING TO CHOKE ME....

GUESS I WASN'T GIVEN A CHOICE....

I AM A SURVIVOR....
I HAVE FACED WORSE....
I WILL LIVE THIS THROUGH....

....THATS WHAT I KEEP TELLING MYSELF...

Saturday, January 07, 2012

THE WALK

I read it somewhere, that when you are angry or hurt or sad or mad, take a long slow walk alone.

With school getting over, I have to prepare myself for something that I have not yet faced in the 17 years of my life - unfamiliarity.

Being in one school for the last 14 years(that is the whole of my school life), one cannot not get attached to it. On the last day of this session ( for the 12th class people ) I wanted to take as much of the school away with me as I could....which I know is a very dumb thought. So I settled for a long walk through the corridors....and through the years.

It was beautiful....

I never knew I could miss a place so much. But now I know.

I would be taking away with me 14 years worth of memories...and a truckload of friends...

And believe me when you are down or blue, just take a long slow walk.

It can work wonders...

Saturday, September 17, 2011

THIS THING CALLED "UNDERSTANDING"

Sometimes we want the world to understand us...

Sometimes the world wants us to understand it....


The latter may be more difficult ........... But it is also the more important of the two.