THE WALLS CLOSING IN

WITH THE 12TH BOARDS SUCCESSFULLY OUT OF THE WAY(NOT 12 HOURS AGO), I HAVE ALREADY STARTED FEELING HOLLOW....

ITS AN ALL TIME LOW...

WHAT WITH DAD GIVING ME THE ' ...GOING TO BE INDEPENDENT...' LECTURE IN THE CAR ON THE WAY BACK HOME FROM THE EXAM CENTRE...

I WANTED TO SCREAM!!!

NO. IT WAS NOT ABOUT GUYS.... RELATIONSHIPS....
NAH...

I GOT A LECTURE ON 'HOW TO HANDLE MONEY'...'HOW TO BE ADULT'...'HOW TO WASH MY OWN CLOTHES',,,

ALL I DID WAS NOD AND GRUNT.... I THINK I EVEN MANAGEDTO GET A FEW CRACKS IN THE CONVERSATION....

BUT I DONT WANT THIS,..... I WANT TO GO BACK.....DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN....

HELL, I DONT EVEN LOOK FORWARD TO COLLEGE....

I JUST AM FEELING SMALL AND LONELY AND LOST AND DOWN.........

FROM THE MOMENT I GOT OUT OF THE EXAM HALL I HAVE BEEN ON THE VERGE OF TEARS...... I KNOW I DONT WANT TO CRY.....I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO STOP....

BUT I CANT HELP THINKING THAT THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO FEEL RIGHT, BECAUSE EVERYBODY IN THIS FREAKING COUNTRY DOES THIS....

BUT IT DOES NOT FEEL OK....IT FEELS LIKE SOMEONE'S TRYING TO CHOKE ME....

GUESS I WASN'T GIVEN A CHOICE....

I AM A SURVIVOR....
I HAVE FACED WORSE....
I WILL LIVE THIS THROUGH....

....THATS WHAT I KEEP TELLING MYSELF...