WISHFUL THINKING

I turned 17.....

Something I have been waiting for...for a very long time....

but now that it's happened....

I want to go back....
go back to elementary school....
go back to being scared of slides.....

go back to being a stamped slow learner of the class...

go back to playing hide-and-seek in recess....

go back to being the simple, quiet, sober little girl....

go back to not having to watch my diet....
go back to the permanently-bruised-knees days...
go back to playing for hours on the end in the evenings....
go back to not having tuitions....
go back to the all-friends-no-enemies status...

go back to the little, scared, naive, believe-it-all....

go back to being obedient....

go back to being innocent....

go back to the little wide-eyed, awestruck-every-other-minute girl of four.....

go back to those beautiful never-ending carefree days.........

go back to......... so much that has been left behind...........

wishful thinking......