Sometimes it becomes necessary that we hide the pain inside...keep the hurt out of our eyes...and stop the disappointment from showing in our voice. Especially if the pain/hurt/disappointment is sure to destroy something preious and irreplacable, even more if that 'something' belongs to someone else. It is not for you to take...not for you to manipulate...however much you want to.
Then you start feeling bad, because you think that you are losing that thing...angry, because you feel that life has cheated you out of something that you wanted to have...and helpless, because you can't have it without inflicting pain and hurt and sorrow on someone.
So you finally decide that you must forget that you ever wanted or desired it...or even that the particular thing even existed. Trust me, very soon you will be able to get over it. and when you do, you will start feeling normal again.
Everyone has these aformentioned 'things' in their lives.
To a 5 year old,it may be a toy.
To a 15 year old, it may be a crush.
To a 25 year old, it may be a job.
The 'thing' varies from person to person...but it is always there...omnipresent...gnawing at you.
And when you finally think that you are over it, some random person is sure to mention it.
"Hey son, you liked the teddy on display, right?"
"Carol, did you have a thing for Mr. Hot?"
"What happened to that job?"...
And then... you go to the bathroom and cry.
But it is just another valley...if you go ahead you may find the peaks...
Or maybe just a better, more beautiful valley....
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ReplyDeleteOr maybe just a better , more beautiful valley"
ReplyDeleteBut the rule says after valley , it has to be peak and may be more beautiful peak.